1. |
Where Did I Go?
03:50
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Wonder why it hurts so much to sing
I’m wide awake
And I can’t hear a sound anywhere for miles
Where did it all go?
Now I’m stuck with all the hell that silence brings
It’s safe to say
That I tried to go back to the way it was before
So where did I go?
Trapped in today
I can’t move my eyes around the room to see who’s giving up
Wish I could replace
The way I sleep too much for the guy who stayed awake
Living in the worst case
I can’t keep my head on long enough to breathe
And the steps I retraced
Led to the same damn place that I was too blind to see
Wonder why it hurts so much to sing
I’m wide awake
And I can’t hear a sound anywhere for miles
Where did it all go?
Now I’m stuck with all the hell that silence brings
It’s safe to say
That I tried to go back to the way it was before
So where did I go?
And I found out that the ones who cared were using me from the start
It’s not my fault that I caught on
It’s not my fault that now I’m gone
But it turns out that I’m just as bad as the ones who broke my heart
Ask anyone you want
I’m everything they say I’m not
Eyes to my phone
Try to write out a response that makes up for everything
But it’s too late
Ear to the ground
Hear all the words and the faces that
Summon me by name
Now it’s too late
It's too late
Wonder why it hurts so much to sing
I’m wide awake
And I can’t hear a sound anywhere for miles
Where did it all go?
Now I’m stuck with all the hell that silence brings
It’s safe to say
That I tried to go back to the way it was before
So where did I go?
Where did I go?
Where did I go?
Where did I go?
Where did I go?
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2. |
Thirteen
02:39
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You're not here
And I can't feel my eyes in my head anymore
Yeah I'll wake up and put the mask on
But that's what scares me the most
No clarity in my sense of self
You look at me like I'm someone else
Cause I'm the one who's laying in the dark room
Praying to whatever's left that I'll feel at home, you won't be alone
I'm your thirteen and you're my hell
You swore that you'd feel differently
But your eyes still read as grey
You look so fulfilled
Every time that I get pushed away
If I'm terrible, then why does everybody that I don't want want me
You're so convincing that I couldn't see how dark this could be
I swear to God, I'm so terrified
Cause what happens when everyone leaves?
Then it's just the one person that you and I can't stand
And that's me and we both know it
No clarity in my sense of self
You look at me like I'm someone else
Cause I'm the one who's laying in the dark room
Praying to whatever's left that I'll feel at home, you won't be alone
I'm your thirteen and you're my hell
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3. |
The Inside
03:12
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If I may be so bold as to say
That you're a liar
We see the skies and the streams running through the woods
And what you feed them and I am no longer afraid to bite the hand
I am well read and human and I am American
And my forums match your armies man to man
I’m not silent so you know where I stand
And if I try to break it down from the inside
Who knows what I’ll find
And if I can’t fit all the pieces together
I guess I’m stuck here forever
If I can’t find the peace in knowledge I’ll look other places
People trapped in foreign spaces
While I’m too blind to see what my own cage is
Try to spread all the fear that I’ve got
Cause in my circles I'll be someone I’m not
And if I try to break it down from the inside
Who knows what I’ll find
And if I can’t fit all the pieces together
I guess I’m stuck here forever
And if I try to break it down from the inside
Who knows what I’ll find
And if I can’t fit all the pieces together
I guess I’m stuck here forever
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4. |
Bed
03:54
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Time away
It’s an escape
I need to be, I need to be away from you
But it’s so hard
When I’m so far
This too will pass
Foot on the gas
Driving home faster than the other way around
It feels so far
Why’s it so hard?
And I need to sleep alone
Cause another body makes me feel constricted
And I need to be my own
Wish I could close my eyes and rest
I’m at work gotta put this all to bed
Can’t lie to myself
I know me to well
I need to be I need to be underground
It feels so real
No time to heal
So leave me alone
Don’t worry I’ll find ways to self-sabotage
As much as you would have
Wish I could close my eyes and rest
I’m at work gotta put this all to bed
Wish I could close my eyes and rest
I’m at work gotta put this all to bed
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5. |
Mountain
03:55
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And I can’t feel anything
These things don’t work the way they seem
Another month I need some help
I’ll just keep lying to myself
And I can’t promise it’ll work
But this is not what you deserve
I wish I didn’t have to be the way I am
Trying hard to be alone hoping you never understand
I can’t stand the dark rooms that we live in
We don’t look each other in the eyes
Afraid we might see some emotion behind every gaze of ice
I'm sorry that I feel something
I’m sorry that you see nothing
I wish I was a mountain
So I could be conquered and done with
I can’t imagine coming home from work and finding me asleep and upset
But I know what it’s like to be a nuisance and it’s the closest that I’ll get
It's the closest I'll get
Yeah, it's the closest I'll get
I'm sorry that I feel something
I’m sorry that you see nothing
I wish I was a mountain
So I could be conquered and done with
So I could be conquered and done with
I'm sorry that I feel something
I’m sorry that you see nothing
I'm sorry that I feel something
Yeah, it's the closest I'll get
I'm sorry that I feel something
I’m sorry that you see nothing
I wish I was a mountain
So I could be conquered and done with
And I can’t feel anything
And I can’t feel anything
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